Life is A-Muse ing

I have always wondered why i have been so confused about what i want in life. I guess some people may even call me fickle minded, but then again after reassurances, i now know that its not a fickle mind that is the creator of this confusion. Its just my thirst and search for something that i truly want to do. I am impatient, I am on my own, I am someone who needs movement, i need to be in control of my self. I guess i didnt realise all this earlier which is why i have finally reached cinematography.
I remember i did shoot a so called Arty film, which was used for Artistes Unlimited (A.U.) musical En Route. I had to shoot a short 2 minute video for a song called 'Fragile'. I wish i had realised that that was the kind of work i would want to do in life. But i guess after again some more reassurance i realised thats its not too late. At least im getting closer to what i want to do. All my life i have been quite 'fickle minded' but i cant help it. I have always had to choose lines on my own and figure out if i wanted to do that for ever. I have changed from an engineer to an architect to a copywriter n now finally to a cinematographer. I love art and creativity and i love traveling and i love animals and i love music. Perhaps cinematography will give me an insight into what my heart has always been looking for. I truly hope i get to do something like this. I like feild work. I like being able to showthings that people would oterwise ignore.

I am writing this hoping that someday someone will read this and realise that i am true to what i do. I love things passionately. But its just that i am still looking and seeking out what i want.
Like i have always told myself,

" if your not looking for it, you wont SEE it"
by Noel